An Open Letter to the Love of my Life
- Brenda Tollefson
- Jun 12, 2015
- 2 min read
When our husbands deploy or go TDY it can be so difficult. That pressure only compounds when their trips are more frequent and for longer periods of time. I find it helps to write it all down. So this is what I wrote and I thought I’d share it with my readers today.
An Open Letter to the Love of My Life
I have loved you for so long that I cannot picture what my life would have been like without you in it. You have not only changed the course of my life, but my whole perspective on love. People believe that women are these gushing geysers of emotions that cannot be contained. I fear the opposite is true. I fear my lack of openness sometimes pushes you away. I fear I get so tied up in the day to day that I forget to show you what you truly mean to me. I fear there is something worse than driving someone away, and that is forgetting to show them that you care. I fear there may come a day when we look more like strangers sharing the same space than lovers sharing the same breath. I fear that the distance often grows too far. I fear we depend too greatly on our future that we forget to relish in our present. I fear all this has taken its toll on our relationship.
I hope that we can find that place again. That place where we would come together in perfect harmony. That place where the smell of your skin, the sound of your voice, and the feel of your soft breath reminded me how it all began. I hope we can find a way to put aside our busy day-to-day to bring back that bliss, if only for a moment. That’s all I ask for. A moment of nothing but you! Every day! For the rest of our lives.
If I were a wise woman, I would pour over you like rain. Letting every drop of my being nourish your soul. Letting my passion for you ring out like thunder from the gods. Letting my love, light even your darkest moments like the full moon sky. If I were a wise woman I would find a way to capture the perfect moments like fireflies in a lantern so that when all the lights go out I’ll be reminded by each and every glimmering light just how much you care. Because with all the love you’ve shown me, one could go blind even from the dim light of so many fireflies. If I were a wise woman, I would find a way to bring you joy every day. Like the songbird who wakes you with the morning sun. Not a day would go by that you wouldn’t hear my sweet hum. I pray that one day we will no longer get torn apart like an old dirty rag, but rather we can fit the pieces of our puzzle back together, glue them in place, and continue our lives journey hand in hand. I pray you find this letter and you understand that I don't love you the way I did all those years ago. I love you so much more!
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